where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you.- edna st. vincent millay
exactly three months to go. may 6th is the date steve is supposed to get back home, although as any military wife knows--you can't really count on that date.
deployments are kind of like labor...you don't really remember the feelings, the emotions, the pain, until you're actually going through it again. i thought that when i got to this point, it would start getting easier; it would just be smooth sailing. but it's not. i actually feel like it's getting harder. it's kind of like groundhog day these days. same shit (me doing everything) every day...over and over again.
i miss having my husband here by my side. i miss having my best friend. i miss being able to talk to him whenever i want. i miss being able to talk to him, when i need him. i just plain 'ole miss him. a lot.
steve sent me these unclassified photos the other day and i just keep looking at them over and over again. sigh.
p.s. steve is the guy without the mustache ;-)