my friend, steph, is a brilliant writer and photographer and today she posted THIS on the creative mama. tears strolled down my cheeks as i read her words and thought about my own kids (and no steph, i'm not PMSing). kiele started high school this year. sky is in third grade. and my baby, ryder, is now in first grade (and for some reason, a first grader just seems so much older than a kindergardener).
my babies aren't babies anymore and... i ache at the thought that i am no longer cool in kiele's eyes or that she would rather spend time in her cave than with the family. i ache at the thought of skyler no longer wanting me to kiss or hug her in front of her classmates. i ache at the thought of ryder not asking me to snuggle with him or him not coming into my bed in the middle of the night. the thought of my last baby no longer being my baby makes me want to throw up.
how is this happening? so quickly? where did the time go?
not long ago, i saw this photo of my friend, heather, with her youngest, who is about ryder's age. i now long for such a photo of ryder and i. i can barely hold him anymore (he's so big) and before long, that will be gone too.
don't get me wrong, i do celebrate the wonderful children my babies have grown to be, but i can't help but think about how quickly the time has passed and the memories i hold onto so tightly.
in closing, i share a few recent photos of my babies...
sky and ryder yesterday, their first day of school
i wasn't able to get a photo of kiele yesterday because she was running late and had to rush off to school to test all her cochlear implant equipment before the other students started arriving in the classroom. however, i was able to get a photo of part of her teenage cave. ;-))
and the little ones' shoes. couldn't help it. every year, we have major shoe drama (too big, too tight, not bendy enough, hurts my pinky toe, etc.). also, i love their independence in selecting their own clothes. check out sky's rolled down striped socks (selecting their own clothes in the morning is something i have always encouraged). oh...and...sky's knees are pretty darn cute too.
note: we're actually headed to payless this afternoon because the shoe drama continued this morning.
and the dog, who is hard as hell to photograph, makes a mess of my doors and anxiously awaits their return home every day.