life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are.- bernice johnson reagon yes it's true...we are moving to kansas. together. as a family. complete. whole. all five of us. i swear this time. there's no turning back. or even looking back.
we'll be leaving san diego around june 18th and arriving in kansas the end of june, making a few stops here and there along the way (providing our carsick dog can tolerate it).
this whole journey has been interesting and i have to say that the support and encouragement from friends...and strangers (via blog comments and emails) has had a huge impact on me. huge! it has helped me see. and feel. and believe. and i thank you from the bottom of my heart.
i haven't shot much lately. no...i haven't shot at all. a bit paralyzed by life's present chaos. but i'm thankful. thankful because most of the time, this paralysis fronts itself as a numbing sensation, rather than a true paralysis. but at times, the paralysis does become so severe, it wakes me at night--unable to breathe or swallow. while only lasting a couple seconds, when it consumes my body, the seconds seem more like minutes. and then...the paralysis weens and the numbing resumes.
but this weekend, we are celebrating two birthdays--kiele turning 12 (sleepover party on saturday) and skyler turning 6 (princess party at a salon on sunday)--and i will shoot. i also have a special (girl) date this wednesday and we are going to play....we're going to play with film. and i'm going to shoot something i've had in mind for the beach series. i'm excited to chat. to breathe. to share. to dream. to play.
so here's to breaking this feeling of paralysis, believing in myself and wishing for a helluva adventure in kansas.
dream a dream. wish a wish. set it free. trust your heart. just believe.