yes, ten days until i depart for africa. and most days lately, i seem to be a bundle of emotional mess — excited, nervous, curious, anxious, thrilled. and then sometimes my head REALLY messes with me and worry overwhelms me. i begin to question…
will i be able to accurately capture the awesomeness that i am about to view?
will i capture all that these people deserve to be shared?
am i going to forget something important?
will my equipment be okay?
yes, i seem to play the best head games with myself. and i know this worry is just not healthy. i know some might think it’s downright silly. i know some might want to shake me. i know that worrying does nothing for no one. i know that my energy and thoughts need to be redirected in a positive direction. I KNOW!
when these thoughts seem to be getting the best of me, i remind myself that i have been blessed with this gift and all i have to do is use it — use it the way i do each and every day here at home. i remind myself that i’m about to embark on the most awesome, incredible, magical journey of a lifetime — a dream come true. i remind myself how very blessed i am. i remind myself that i can absolutely do this! i remind myself that right now, i simply need to breathe, trust, believe and enjoy my family.
they have entrusted me.
i need to trust myself…
trust the path.
trust the process.
and stop worrying.
i am beyond grateful for this opportunity. many days, i still can’t believe it. i’m not sure i could ever fully express the amount of gratitude that i hold in my heart.
lastly, to all those who have donated, either monetarily here or items, for me to hand-deliver to the tanzanian children — i cannot thank you enough. your kindness and generosity overwhelms me. deeply and truly, I THANK YOU!
p.s. thank you for reading…and understanding.
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Your light will win over the worry. No doubt. I can’t wait to see your magic.
i trust your honesty. i trust your eye. i trust god will bless you with an amazing experience. i trust you know you are a beautiful artist. trust the confidence we all have in you. xo.
YOu will do great Deb, I have no doubt! I have to say you will do amazing! Totally understand your feelings I have had them before every one of my big trips… india and Africa… but don’t worry it will all be amazing and just what your soul needs. Hard sometimes but good hard.
Huge hugs lovely and know that I think you will be more then amazing!!
the only tip I have is make your gear as light as possible so you can carry it everywhere… also take heaps of small hard drives and back up to them and put them in lots of different spots. So even if you gear is taken you still have the phtoos!
YOU WILL BE AMAZING. Shoot the way you shoot any other time. The images will come to you.
fly safe.
Deb, go do it…have all the faith in the world in you. It will be amazing.
Anticipation is the hardest part.. once abroad the experience begins and you will have no time to worry. God will protect you and will be here cheering for you in our thoughts. You are amazing!
You will do beautifully! Your spirit comes through your images here and they will there too. I hope it’s a life altering experience for you, in the best way possible!
May you be overwhelmed with blessings of many kinds on this trip sweet Deb!
Lose yourself there, allow Africa to change you, because it will.
you’re going to be amazing. trust. xo
You are going to shine! Your work is amazing and I can’t wait to see all the awesomeness you capture when you return. Good luck!
You are going to do awesome!!! I’m so happy I had the opportunity to meet you and I can’t wait to follow your journey in Tanzania. You are an amazing photographer and I know you will capture every beautiful moment you see to share with the world.