time is a companion who reminds us to cherish every moment because it will never come again.
- author unknown
i could scream this quote at myself right now.
only four weeks left before steve leaves for iraq. he's not actually leaving until october, but between now and then, it goes something like this...home this week, gone the following, home one week, gone for three weeks, etc. and these times here and away are constantly changing...an extra week gone, home a few days earlier. not always easy, when i try to keep track of things and plan accordingly.
and of course, in saying the above about cherishing every moment, i was on the computer way too much tonight...and still am. [kicking myself]
and...i have to take more photos of steve. more photos of steve with the kids. for pete's sake...i'm a photographer. what's my deal? my house should be filled with photos of steve and the kids. but it's not. it's funny b/c everyone thinks that as a photographer, i have a ton of photos of my kids (and my husband). but that's not true. sure i have photos. but they're all the great photos. the spontaneity of picture taking seems to have been sucked away and in exchange, i was given this gift of being a professional photographer. yes, there are professional photographers that also continue to take snapshots of their family. but not me...it's almost as if i made a trade. and i'm not happy about it. i want to do both. i keep telling myself...time and time again....that i have to take more snapshots (i used to be the queen of snapshots) but i don't. [kicking myself again]
i must take more snapshots of my family.
i must take more snapshots of my family.
i must take photos of steve with the kids.
i must take photos of steve with the kids.
and i will continue the chant as i go to sleep tonight.
....................................
today, when i photographed max, our families got together...we met at starbucks in del mar and walked to the powerhouse park and had the most wonderful time. i was happy that steve got to meet the mikulak family. it was important to me, since i spend a lot of time with them (shooting max). i wanted steve to experience first hand how wonderful max and his family are.
and today...
i did get a few shots of steve and ryder together. nothing earth shattering, but symbolic. steve and ryder, watching the train zip by...as i watch time zip by.
good night.
i must take more snapshots of my family.
i must take more snapshots of my family.
i must take photos of steve with the kids.
i must take photos of steve with the kids.
- author unknown
i could scream this quote at myself right now.
only four weeks left before steve leaves for iraq. he's not actually leaving until october, but between now and then, it goes something like this...home this week, gone the following, home one week, gone for three weeks, etc. and these times here and away are constantly changing...an extra week gone, home a few days earlier. not always easy, when i try to keep track of things and plan accordingly.
and of course, in saying the above about cherishing every moment, i was on the computer way too much tonight...and still am. [kicking myself]
and...i have to take more photos of steve. more photos of steve with the kids. for pete's sake...i'm a photographer. what's my deal? my house should be filled with photos of steve and the kids. but it's not. it's funny b/c everyone thinks that as a photographer, i have a ton of photos of my kids (and my husband). but that's not true. sure i have photos. but they're all the great photos. the spontaneity of picture taking seems to have been sucked away and in exchange, i was given this gift of being a professional photographer. yes, there are professional photographers that also continue to take snapshots of their family. but not me...it's almost as if i made a trade. and i'm not happy about it. i want to do both. i keep telling myself...time and time again....that i have to take more snapshots (i used to be the queen of snapshots) but i don't. [kicking myself again]
i must take more snapshots of my family.
i must take more snapshots of my family.
i must take photos of steve with the kids.
i must take photos of steve with the kids.
and i will continue the chant as i go to sleep tonight.
....................................
today, when i photographed max, our families got together...we met at starbucks in del mar and walked to the powerhouse park and had the most wonderful time. i was happy that steve got to meet the mikulak family. it was important to me, since i spend a lot of time with them (shooting max). i wanted steve to experience first hand how wonderful max and his family are.
and today...
i did get a few shots of steve and ryder together. nothing earth shattering, but symbolic. steve and ryder, watching the train zip by...as i watch time zip by.
good night.
i must take more snapshots of my family.
i must take more snapshots of my family.
i must take photos of steve with the kids.
i must take photos of steve with the kids.
once again, i can so relate to what you've written here.
i hope you are able to cherish it all before he leaves.
love your last line...
I struggle with this on a daily basis too.. snapshots snapshots snapshots. I think buying a little point and shoot will solve the problem...maybe a flip video camera. I really love looking back at snapshots... sometimes I wish I could put my technical eye aside and just take good old snapshots.. it is so hard though. Why is that? And like you want Steve in photos.. I want ME in photos... the kids are not going to care about the 'good' photos when they are older.. they are really only going to care about the snapshots. Sigh.
I must take snapshots.
I must take snapshots.
I must take snapshots.
Hugs friend.
Deb! I hear you loud and clear! It seems that in the midst of becoming a photographer, I have forgotten how to let go of images being "perfect" or well executed in order for them to be "keepers". WHAT? How did that happen? I want to capture the simple basic moments that happen w/o prompting. Without having all the moons and planets align! LOL I catch myself hitting the "delete" button far too often because a picture didn't look professional. What a shame! I wonder how many spectacular moments I have lost doing things that way!? And how about how many pics lack documentation of ME with my kids or husband? Oh totally non-existent! That's why I started my 52 week project. Once a week for the next 52 weeks I have to take a pic of me with one or both of my kids. It's hard to do, but it's going to be so worth it in the end. Its something that I need to continually do. Thanks for reminding us all that it's the simple moments that make the biggest impact. I'm glad you are going to take more snapshots. I look forward to seeing them
(sorry I got so wordy here! LOL This topic just hits home for me!!)
All my best Deb!
J
wow cool photo Deb...
you have such a beautiful way not only with the camera but with your words as well. i hope you have a beautiful time taking all of your snapshots.
Thanks for the reminder Deb.. I must take snapshots too.. I am always trying to set up the perfect family shots in my head that never happen cause my kids are so sick of getting thier photos taken but I need to stive to get more of those real unposed snapshots of our life together because well you just never know what tomorrow will bring.. so thank you.. I will get on that.. and good luck to you in your quest to do the same.