it is a heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance.
it is a dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance.
it is the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give.
and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live.
- bette midler
doing a lot of philosophical pondering lately...
as first said a couple days ago by my amazing friend, steph beaty.
pondering about life.
about business.
there's a number of things that have led up to this, only some of which i'm willing to share right now. but i'm feeling a bit lost lately (and the cruise didn't help). wondering where photography has taken me. wondering where i want to go. don't get me wrong...i absolutely LOVE what i do through and through, but have i allowed photography to consume my life? believe it or not, it's easy to do, especially with my have to be the best, perfectionist, type-A personality. and having a family, a husband who is gone a ton...i can't let photography and a home business consume me. i just can't.
it's been 2 1/2 years now, since first starting photography, and i have yet to find the balance--the correct balance--of mother, wife, photographer and business owner. i'm doing them all well but feel that i'm not doing any of them as great as i'd like. i know others would say that that's b/c of my personality but i have to figure this all out.
i've decided to take somewhat of a break and take less sessions through the summer and see where things take me--as a wife...as a mother...as a photographer...as a business owner. i'm still going to shoot. just less business shooting. i think i owe it to my family. i think i owe it to myself.
i need to sit back and think.
and try...to figure it all out.
in saying all of that, i got the most wonderful email today that i'll share below. i truly believe that everything happens for a reason and well...this email couldn't have come at a better time.
Wow
I absolutely loved your work!
Your use of available light is beautiful,
There's something so peaceful in your images, that going through them was like some sort of... walking in the field experience...
:)
thanks L for taking the time to send this to me. it meant more than you know.
and thanks steph for being the most amazing and beautiful friend...for always being there for me and keeping me grounded. i appreciate your friendship more than you'll ever know. love ya pal.
ETA: again...i absolutely love photography and feel that it's what i was meant to do in life. sometimes i think i love photography too much ;) i just have to find the balance. and do a little soul searching. thanks for all the emails of support.
it is a dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance.
it is the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give.
and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live.
- bette midler
doing a lot of philosophical pondering lately...
as first said a couple days ago by my amazing friend, steph beaty.
pondering about life.
about business.
there's a number of things that have led up to this, only some of which i'm willing to share right now. but i'm feeling a bit lost lately (and the cruise didn't help). wondering where photography has taken me. wondering where i want to go. don't get me wrong...i absolutely LOVE what i do through and through, but have i allowed photography to consume my life? believe it or not, it's easy to do, especially with my have to be the best, perfectionist, type-A personality. and having a family, a husband who is gone a ton...i can't let photography and a home business consume me. i just can't.
it's been 2 1/2 years now, since first starting photography, and i have yet to find the balance--the correct balance--of mother, wife, photographer and business owner. i'm doing them all well but feel that i'm not doing any of them as great as i'd like. i know others would say that that's b/c of my personality but i have to figure this all out.
i've decided to take somewhat of a break and take less sessions through the summer and see where things take me--as a wife...as a mother...as a photographer...as a business owner. i'm still going to shoot. just less business shooting. i think i owe it to my family. i think i owe it to myself.
i need to sit back and think.
and try...to figure it all out.
in saying all of that, i got the most wonderful email today that i'll share below. i truly believe that everything happens for a reason and well...this email couldn't have come at a better time.
Wow
I absolutely loved your work!
Your use of available light is beautiful,
There's something so peaceful in your images, that going through them was like some sort of... walking in the field experience...
:)
thanks L for taking the time to send this to me. it meant more than you know.
and thanks steph for being the most amazing and beautiful friend...for always being there for me and keeping me grounded. i appreciate your friendship more than you'll ever know. love ya pal.
ETA: again...i absolutely love photography and feel that it's what i was meant to do in life. sometimes i think i love photography too much ;) i just have to find the balance. and do a little soul searching. thanks for all the emails of support.
hugs Deb.
I find myself to be in the same place.. just wanting to step back from the biz.. i understand what you are saying. In Fall 2009 my daughter starts KG. So this next year.. I am going to really slow down.. even though I do 2-3 sessions a month at the most.. like you.. i am type A and spend way too much time in front of the computer. Next year I am cutting back to one session a month.. no more. Longer sessions.. more meaningful sessions but fewer sessions.
Anyway.. sorry for my random rambling. I understand what you are saying friend. hugs.
Whatever you decide to do, just know you have been a great inspiration to me, and to many others, I'm sure.
I don't know you personally, but your work expresses a beauty within you that is truly heartfelt. I love that about you and your work.
Basically, I think you're wonderful!
oh sigh. i am just beginning and i feel ya. i am overwhelmed before i've even begun. Natalie said to me today (after I apologized for being a vacant mom due to too many long nights) that they're just not used to me "working". and I'm not even really working yet, just building. so, i get it. I think your fine art collection will do well sitting in a gallery as you ponder your next project. your next carefully thought out project. though i think you're feeling torn because you've been working on something so meaningful? it tends to make the other things less significant. maybe you should just make that your one and only project...it's so heartfelt and really the work you are doing is powerful.