i wish they would only take me as i am.
- vincent van gogh

me...well i wish that I would only take me as i am.

turned 38 today. got a nose ring last night. yep, it's something that i have always wanted. and it was just time. compared to my tongue ring, it didn't hurt a bit. and...i love it.

tonight, my great friend, steph, asked me to see a photo. at first, i told her, no way. i look like hell today. spent the day at the airshow. she said, you know...true love is when your friends don't care that you look like hell. and she's right. but i couldn't help but point out all the flaws i saw, as i sent the photo to her. i'm not sure if i'll ever be at peace with myself. i've always been this way...so hard on myself. i wish...that i could just take myself as i am...and be happy. maybe. someday.

my other birthday first: i learned what sweetbread is...the hard way. i ate it last night at dinner, not knowing what it was. yuck. yuck. yuck. but the french onion soup that surrounded the sweetbread was the best ever. who knew that sweetbread is thymus gland tissue of an animal? i still gag just thinking about it.

all in all, i had an amazing birthday and...38's not too bad :-)