the only thing that stands between a man and what he wants from life is often merely the will to try it and the faith to believe that it is possible.
- david viscott

i'm happy to say that today was a much better day. thank you to all those who emailed me with kind words and chatted with me over the past few days. i kept believing that tomorrow would be a better day and i'm happy that tomorrow finally came.

also today, i emailed a bit back and forth with a photographer friend, the ever-so-talented britt woodall. she's not only talented...she's young and talented. without a doubt, that girl has such a future ahead of her. one of the things we chatted about was dreaming big. you...we...all of us have to dream big. and you have to go for it. i remind myself of this often. i guess it all means more to me now that i'm older...and now that i'm doing something i love to do. i don't have time to waste. i have big dreams and i will go for each and every one of them. i know i can do it. i know i can!

on a little side note, i had to take kiele to children's hospital today for a cat scan. it's no big deal, just an evaluation for enlarged vestibular aqueduct. what's that? well, from what i understand, when a cochlear implant child has enlarged vestibular adqueduct, the fluid in the space where the array of electrodes is located fluctuates. this fluctuation causes a shift in necessary energy to hear, which results in a needed cochlear implant mapping (programming adjustment). kind of complicated but really...it would validate why kiele needs mappings often. okay, on with the reason for this part of the entry. so we're walking through the hospital and we walk by the pediatric intensive care unit and there was something inside of me that was drawn, that kind of longed for it. i can't really explain it but for a moment, i thought maybe i could do nursing again. i don't know...maybe someday there will be a way for me to combine the two--photography and nursing. i don't think i'll ever go back to nursing, even part time, but i was surprised at the feelings i had as i walked by the unit. i guess there's a part of me that will always have a little love for nursing, whether i realize it or not. i guess too many years spent in the profession not to.