well, i write this after a glass and a half of wine so hope everything makes sense tomorrow. :-)

this week has been a fabulous week but today has been rather bitter sweet for me.

steve's family was in town all week and we had an awesome time with them, although it was mostly just me and the kids b/c steve had school all day, every day. on friday, he graduated with his masters in global leadership from USD. that's why his family was here visiting, to attend his graduation. i'm so proud of him. he completed his masters with a full time job in the navy and a family to attend to. it amazes me that he was able to do it all...and do it so well. that's him though. he's the most amazing, kind, wonderful, handsome man. me...being the brat that i am, i told myself that if the air force didn't give me a scholarship (where i was able to attend a masters program, get my full salary, and not work...what a concept, huh?), i wasn't going to do it. i just thought there was no way to work full time and get my masters. lucky for me, the air force did give me a scholarship and i was able to complete my masters in nursing in 2000.

anyways...back to the real reason for the post...why was today so bitter sweet? skyler, my four year old, left with oma and opa (steve's parents) for five days at their house in NV. i just can't believe it. my little girl. old enough to go with grandma and grandpa. doesn't she still need me? it kind of scares me. before i know it, all three will be so grown up and not needing me the way i want them to.

but in saying that, it's going to be an exciting five days with ryder (kiele is with her dad in maine). i'm going to really embrace this time with him...and just him. just me and my boy. yet already, it feels lonely without the girls. i know i'm totally contradicting myself right now but i guess that's the way i feel. bitter sweet, right?